You can do anything

I had a really rough night last night. I tossed & turned until around 3am and finally decided to give up any chance of falling to sleep. I got up and made my way to the living room. I stayed up till around 4:30 or so watching tv in hopes of getting sleepy. It was no use.

Normally I do not like taking sleep meds. I take so many cancer drugs currently and having to take something else is daunting. Thank you Jesus that it was the weekend. I took a Tylenol pm and headed to bed for a second time.

My back is hurting. I think it’s because I’ve been huddled over my coffee table making gnomes to fill a big order. I pretty much stay in a haunched position the entire time it takes me to craft to perfection. I just couldn’t get comfortable in bed. It’s a real struggle in the mornings the past few days to actually rise myself up! Getting old sucks.

It’s around 8 pm now and I decided to take a hot bath with epsom salts, honey & lavender. I’m also using a mask I bought from a friend at work, in hopes all the pampering I’m adding to my bath routine will aid my sleep tonight. I absolutely can not take sleep meds on a work night. I didn’t wake up till after 10 this morning & when I did I couldn’t clear the fog from my brain . If you know me then you know this is 3-4 hours later than normal and it still took another hour to feel awake.

Therapy

‘It’s the season…Growing season that is. Everything (except my garden) is in bloom. I can’t believe I have fruit on my fruit trees already!

We will have pecans, peaches, blueberries, figs, pears and maybe even apples this year. I’m actually planning on doing some canning tomorrow to prepare for the June/July craft fair.

Today is Mother’s Day.
Take a moment now to do something that means a lot—for your mom and moms across our area.

https://secure.info-komen.org/site/Donation2;jsessionid=00000000.app310b?23250.donation=form1&df_id=23250&mfc_pref=T&NONCE_TOKEN=C02989CD7CAA04A129188E8C18C93350

Who’s a mom that inspires you?

Take a moment to reflect on all the special moms you know… Your friend who’s always there when you need her. That neighbor who takes such great care of her family. The woman at work who inspires you to be the best version of yourself. And, of course, there’s your own mom. 

Today is a great day to tell all your favorite moms how much you appreciate them. Say “thank you” with this special Verse : She is clothed with strength and dignity; she can laugh at the days to come. She speaks with wisdom, and faithful instruction is on her tongue. She watches over the affairs of her household and does not eat the bread of idleness. “Many women do noble things, but you surpass them all.” Proverbs 31:31

We did it!

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I am so excited to inform everyone that WE DID IT! We reached our goal of $1000 for the Breast Cancer Walk. I’d love so much to blow our goal out of the water and keep going, but the ultimate goal has been reached & I know ya’ll need to start saving now for next years fundraiser 🙂

I can’t even begin to thank you all enough! There were those of you who donated & those who helped in other ways as well. Everyone who had a hand in this was an amazing blessing! Thank you!

The next step will be to go to goodwill, once they open again, and pick out our pink outfits! The crazier the better. So if anyone see’s something they think would be fun to add or has anything in various tones of pink, we’d be happy to add it to the costumes.

 

It’s just part of the job

With my title comes certain things that I’m taught/trained to do. One such item is that I am the chew toy, not the doctor- ever!

We are taught not to let go when a cat freaks out. If your able to hold it & keep the teeth & claws out of the doctor then HOLD IT! I’ve held on while a cat was actively biting & scratching me more times than I can count. With dog’s it’s harder because they are bigger. I’ve been thrown across the room, bit, scratched and bruised so often that I usually can’t even remember where this bruise came from or when that scratch happened.

Last week I was bit through a muzzle. I hardly even felt it when it happened because I was mostly trying to protect my face from the teeth and pumped full of adrenaline. Shortly afterward though my arm felt tight & had the normal stinging that comes with broken skin. Through the day the bruising became more & more evident. Today I was bit again. This time by an anesthetize dog . He literally didn’t know he was biting me. He bit through the palm of my hand and just sat there with my hand in its mouth for a few seconds while I watched in shock. It’s really sore now and I’m sure tomorrow it’s gonna be tough to use it.

The worst part last week is that the dog broke my cross bracelet I had on. I was able to fix most of it but will actually need to buy some findings at hobby lobby once they open again. The rubber bracelet I wear was undamaged I thought but the next day it fell off me. I’ve had that one on consistently for 2 years!

Right after bite in the beginning of day
End of day- notice swelling of wrist

The Chemo Curl Continues

I’m at the stage of hair growth where strands fall into my face and eyes but it’s still too short to actually put up into a pony tail. If I wanted to closely resemble a 3 year old I could put it in pigtails but I think I’ll save that special look for the Komen Walk in August. I can’t stand hair in my face so recently I’ve been pinning the sides or bangs back. I started by using one set of clips but now have to use 4! The result was my curl was flattened out and after removing the clips it stayed flat until I washed it again.

Since the clip option is no longer working well I bought a few different colored bandana hair things at Walmart and have just been slipping one on every morning. I don’t really do much else in the mornings when getting ready besides just running my fingers through the curls to remove any tangles I might have accumulated overnight.

The curls are still there, as you can see from the picture. I kinda hope they endure even after I’m completely finished with my chemo in 3-4 years. So far I’m about 2 years post mastectomies & 1 year post hard chemo. Still they remain.

I’ve been assured that my new boss isn’t such a tyrant when it comes to crazy hair colors and styles like my old one was. I’d really like to have some fun with it especially when I attend breast cancer events. The other day I was at the dollar store trying to find some crazy pink & fuzzy hair accessories for the upcoming Komen event, but they didn’t have anything I thought would work.

I’m sure I can google and find nearly anything , but I really do want those who’ve donated to the fundraiser to get the chance to choose our outfits for the walk.

No, I definitely have not forgotten about the fundraiser…. with COVID & the crazy world as of late, I’ve not been getting any donations at all. We are still about $140 short of the goal and I would love to surpass that goal by so much more it would make your head spin but I also understand the struggle that a lot of people are facing if they are not considered essential and aren’t getting to go to work. I’ll share the link again just in case there is someone who misses spending money so much that they are willing to spend it now on a great cause!!

https://www.facebook.com/donate/182667332814185/?fundraiser_source=external_url

Clean freak

After sitting at home yesterday with a fever of 101+ and general overall muscle aches and stomach issues I’ve come to the conclusion that you people who just sit at home every day and watch tv all day long—- are CRAZY!

How the heck do you do it! I’m lying on the couch and feel like I’m dying, but all I can see is how disgusting my house is! I see dog hair on the floor and couch, pieces of something the dog destroyed all over the place, dirty dishes piled into the sink, the stove top is gross with crumbs all over it, there are empty coffee pods everywhere and the trash can is overflowing. I pulled out some craft boxes so I could sweep behind them & asked hubby to move them into the guest room but right in the middle of the foyer they still sat. I had done some canning 2 days ago and asked to have the big pot dumped but instead it sat full of water in the kitchen floor. The bedroom has laundry I folded last week piled into a hamper next to the dresser but not put away and everywhere I step I get crunchy things on the bottom of my feet. I could not stand it.

Am I a clean freak? Maybe… but I honestly just don’t understand how you can look at a sink full of dishes and think it’s ok to leave it like that!

Although I felt like pure crap I swept the living room and foyer and came up with enough hair to build a cat. I took one of the couches apart and cleaned under the cushions and threw those in the washer. I had to take a bit of a break because I was feeling lightheaded but cleaned at least that small portion of the house.

This morning I was feeling better so the first thing I did was start on the bathroom and my bedroom. Clean sheets for the bed, hanging clean clothes in the closet and when I get home from the doctors I will finish the bed and vacuum. I already did the dishes in the sink but have to put together my jams & tops so I can get that project off my counter & out of the way to sell.

I just don’t have the ability to sit in a house that is dirty. I started to straighten up my porch before I got Ill but I never finished so it’s in a state of disarray now that bugs me.

A huge portion of mess in my living room is of my own creating- literally. I have gnome order projects everywhere & my storage bins are overflowing with faux fur, pipe cleaners and doll shoes. I’ve tried to consolidate it down but I never know what I’m gonna need for a particular project. Garrik wants to turn our guest room into a craft room. I’m not sold on that idea. I use my office space for a bunch, but that is also my rehab room for when I have babies. Currently my possums are outside & slowly being released but I could get more critters any day.

Right now I’m at the doctors office. They just did the nose swab thing, which SUCKED. It burned and hurt to have that thing collecting samples near my frontal lobe! They took chest X-rays and are coming in for blood next. I’m just hoping to get the all clear so I can go back to work. I’m way way behind on bills right now and not working a few days is gonna destroy us. My temp went from 98.9 this morning to 100 here. Are humans like dogs & cats where their temperature will elevate when they are nervous or afraid?

Fingers crossed. I’m sure Garrik has his crossed too…. he was going to go to Ohio for his son’s graduation but now he’s thinking he may not. I told him it would be 3 days before I knew anything anyway but he’s nervous about potentially spreading whatever I have to his family or bringing something back to me. I think it’s fine for him to go because this is a very important milestone for his son & I’d hate to see him miss the celebration.

Lockdown

News through the grapevine today was that the county next to ours, the one I work in, would be going on a mandatory stay at home order at 2. We had a brief meeting at work then I took the opportunity to run to the craft store when I got off around noon. If I’m gonna be stuck at home this weekend with thunderstorms in the forecast, I’m gonna keep myself busy crafting.

I was wonderfully surprised to find everything I was looking for , and most of it was 50-60% off! They have grapevine wreaths for $2.99! I’m gonna be busy!

Fear not

“Fear not, for I am with you; be not dismayed, for I am your God; I will strengthen you, I will help you, I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.” Isaiah 41:10

Our world has changed drastically over the past two weeks. Coronavirus (COVID-19) has completely altered our daily lives. We have seen worry & panic spread throughout our community and nation.

2 years ago Easter

I look back on this photo from 2 years ago. It was taken right before I found out I had cancer. Right before my entire world shifted and the rug was pulled out from beneath my feet. I’m a different person now. My world was shaken but I didn’t die and I continue to thrive. I’ve changed, I think for the better. I believe our nation can too.

I know we will get back to the way we were as a nation but my hope is that we will become better citizens and better people. This virus has torn us apart but it is also bringing us together.

Strangers are helping strangers. Neighbors are meeting each other for the first time. Crafters are making masks to donate to those in need.

I pray that after we have recovered from this situation we will continue to not live by text message alone, but actually talk to people. Less “friends” on Facebook & more friends in real life. We need each other.